in need of something new

I just got home from the last 7-15 year old session at CBG. I had an amazing cabin with very inspirational campers. All of the staff in my cabin got along very well, which was fantastic! However, aside from my cabin, things were not so great. The pranking has started, which is frustrating to no end. I don’t mind pranks when they’re done with taste and do not mess with anyone’s personal belongings. Throwing dirt on someone’s clothes, or putting a dirty diaper in someone’s bookbag is NOT funny!! Pranks should not be personal and should not be disgusting like that. On top of that, there is a whirlwind of negativity. I realize that at the end of the summer, people really start to get irritable, but that is not an excuse to pull pranks. At this point, I’m not so sure that I want to come back to CBG next summer. Not only because of some of the negativity and rediculous pranking, but also because it is not nurturing to my spirituality. My spirituality has grown by leaps and bounds this summer, but all of the growing has been done on my breaks, outside of camp. Although the campers are inspirational and teach me SO much, I feel that they could teach me more if there weren’t so much negativity flowing around me. I feel that Satan is prowning at my feet, clawing at my legs just trying to take over me right now. There is WAY too much temptation and not enough room for my spirituality to grow out there. I need a camp environment where there is more focus on spiritual growth and people are being helped. So, I’m going to do some research and praying for guidance to possibly a different camp for next year. I also think that the Lord wants me to try something new, get some different experiences. We will see where the Lord leads me.

another blogging attempt

So I’ve had blogs in the past, but I’m terrible at keeping up with them. This is my attempt to keep up a blog about the crazy process we call discernment. My journey to find out whether or not I really am called to become a religious sister. A place where I hope to help others understand the discernment process and what i’m going through without talking about it all the time and annoying the heck out of people! haha…I’ll probably talk about many other things here too…like Camp Burnt Gin…cause it’s amazing!

So it’s really late, but I just can’t really sleep. So, camp is just going awesome! I absolutely LOVE it! The kids are teaching me SO much. Sometimes it gets difficult and tiring, but being difficult and tired is nothing compared to what some of these kids have to go through. You see, CBG is a camp for children with special needs. So, the kids that come there have numerous doctor’s appointments. Some of them can’t feed themselves, walk, talk, shower themselves, etc. Most of us don’t realize how fortunate we are.

As far as discernment, it’s a rollorcoaster. Right now, I am in continual contact with four communities: Salesian Sisters, Dominican Sisters of St. Cecilia in Nashville, Apostles of the Sacred Heart of Jesus, and Sisters of Christian Charity. They are all very beautiful communities. They all wear the habit, but their charisms and apostolates are all different. I hope to visit each of them some day, but we will see where the Lord leads me.

Well, there is some background info for ya. I head back to camp tomorrow, so it’ll be about another week or so before I post again.

Pax